Being totally honest with myself was one thing but being brutally critical was another. For a long time, I felt inadequate, I hated what was happening to my life, I felt as though life was being drained from me day by day. Wanting to do so many things, especially with my children, and just not being able to. My energy or lack of, continuously putting a halt to plans I had made. The pain I felt because there were times, I couldn’t even hug my children, it was just too painful.